Hurting.....

Dunno y i'm back here.......mayb i do kno, i just dont wanna kno i kno it. Its just confusing. Dunno y life does weird shit to you......i kno its a test, but when i keep failing it doesnt make sense......y shud i b tested time n time again. Doesnt make sense what i'm writing......mayb someday i'll come back here, read all this and laugh it off..... but when will that day come.....will i survive till then....? I hope i do......just to make myself realize what happend wasnt real.......it was just sumthing that had to.......
I wanna write more, pour it all out.......but just cant bring myself to let go.........i wanna hold on to the pain.......its sweet, it hurts.....it makes me feel alive.......