Hurting.....

Dunno y i'm back here.......mayb i do kno, i just dont wanna kno i kno it. Its just confusing. Dunno y life does weird shit to you......i kno its a test, but when i keep failing it doesnt make sense......y shud i b tested time n time again. Doesnt make sense what i'm writing......mayb someday i'll come back here, read all this and laugh it off..... but when will that day come.....will i survive till then....? I hope i do......just to make myself realize what happend wasnt real.......it was just sumthing that had to.......
I wanna write more, pour it all out.......but just cant bring myself to let go.........i wanna hold on to the pain.......its sweet, it hurts.....it makes me feel alive.......

I'm back......

Hello people.........or someone who bothers to visit my blogs.......
Been a long time..... I thought I could do this.......blogging that is.....
But I guess I'm so busy n comfy in my routine life that I dont really bother bout pouring out my thoughts on a website of all the places.......
I'm very paranoid by nature, and the thought that so many or mabye nobody will read bout my feelings/thoughts/criticisms/whining.....etc gave me the creeps.....
So I just dint bother.....
Well I guess I'll come by again n write something here......something I want to write bout......but cant for now......or maybe forever.....

Joining formalities

Interesting it took me so long to get into the 'blog' world.
I used to wonder: y do people have blogs? y do they post shit arnd here?
Does ny1 actually read all this??
I guess they do.....that's y u have all the cases coming up against people who dare to say the truth in blogs.
U got so much in u, u feel like ur gonna burst......this is a good way of letting some steam off.....
And also to crib or praise bout ur life......
I guess blogging begins with cribbing bout going-ons in ur life and once people start replyin to ur posts it becomes more of a conversation of wat's goin on in each other's lives.
Weird, isnt it? Others lives r either amazing or pathetic, n u alwez wish u were sum1 else......live their life.....
But it doesnt help......u r wat u r!
U gotta stand up for urself.
If life sucks, deal with it!!
If we try to go down with it.....then therz rarely ny hope to come back....
Nywz, I started this blog, just to crib bout my life occasionally......mayb praise it even sumtimes....
Just to pour my thoughts out......\
Nothin else.....